Some background information on me. I’m an CODA, actress, a photographer, a painter, a Realtor®, an entrepreneur, and aspire to be many, many other things. I live life moment by moment, and try my best to be open to the world of inspirations and possibilities.
Right now in this moment, I’m working through deciding whether to move to New York or Los Angeles (I’ve resided in Dallas since 2001)…the difference between communing with dear friends who are inspired and filled with light, and reconnecting with my mom, who has been living a somewhat self imposed secluded existence and my brother, and his foster daughter, an incredibly animated 4 year old who lights my life from a distance and whom I strongly desire to connect with first hand.
Last week, New York was not even on my radar, but today, there’s no other choice but there. After realizing of course there’s a finite amount of time to spend with my mom, and taking into consideration the fact that up till this point, I’ve seen her once a year for the past 7 years, a move to Los Angeles, however delicious, means several more years until I move within a close proximity to her. She is a die hard New Yorker, and would never consider living anywhere else. Clearly I didn’t get my vagabond gene from her.
The truth is I know that I can have whatever I desire. And although right now it seems like I cant have both my family and my inspirational friends, as they will soon be on opposite coasts, I have confidence that this perceived obstacle will be easily overcome. I may not have all the answers, but I do know that a solution will present itself, if I am open to receive it. Right now, my first order of business though is to follow what has heart and meaning for me, and it lies with my mom. Any other choice would be remiss.
Now logically, New York would mean a new theatrical and commercial agent, applying for a New York real estate licence and more importantly starting a customer base from from scratch, and/or diving feet first into one of the many creative endeavors that have been gestating inside of me for a number of years, who’s birth has been long overdue. Funny thing is I’m not scared at all about making a living. I’m most concerned about making sure I’m safe and inspired wherever I am. Inspiration is the fuel for the fire.
Right now, I have no idea how it will all fall into place. My goal for today was just to squeeze out this blog, another formally gestating being, which I’m so proud to have given birth to. I look forward to the answers and additional questions tomorrow brings.
